Oh, hey blog! It’s Sunday night and I am tired. My wonderful and loving husband is on a business conference until Thursday. I just finished pre-making the crock pot meals for this week and I’m feeling accomplished. And tired.
I’ve been doing a 40 day sugar fast with Wendy Speake and about 5000 women on facebook! I started earlier than everyone else, and tomorrow will mark my 2 week date. Around Thursday I started feeling super tired (more than my usual tired-because-I-have-three-children-who-still-wake-up-at-night kind of tired), and I’m blaming the sugar fast! I’ve been doing pretty well besides that, but I must admit that it’s HARD to not join in when the kids are having chocolate or cookies or well, anything. And tonight, with Rick being gone, MAN I have to admit that the chocolate Easter bunnies are calling my name! But, I want Jesus more. And that’s what the fast is all about. Seeking Jesus, learning to crave Him instead of sugary chocolatey goodies.
Our family memorizes a Bible verse every week, and this one is (I’m attempting to do this from memory 😉 )
“The Lord God is a sun and a shield. The Lord will give grace and glory. No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.” Psalm 84:11. Woo! I did it.
Anyway, “no good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.” I’m learning to crave Him instead. I’m also reading “Made to Crave.” And it’s pretty good. I haven’t gotten that far, maybe 5 or 6 chapters, but I’m enjoying it enough to want to continue reading.
It has been 8 years now since I graduated from college. Since I was a student at Messiah College! [insert shocked face here]. Seems like yesterday, yet here I have three children and a husband with whom I’ve built my life with! Doesn’t seem possible. On Thursday night I visited Messiah– this time for Powerhouse, a student-led worship night. When I was a student there, I went to Powerhouse every.single.Thursday. I never wanted to miss it. There is nothing like corporate worship where you can truly sing your heart out and no one will care what you sound like or what you look like. I admit, I probably was more self-conscious when I actually went to school there haha, but this time, nope. I belted my heart out. And I heard from the Lord. It was so wonderful, so refreshing. His presence was tangible. His words just flowed from my heart. Yeah….I’m looking forward to going back 😉 Often when I’m in His presence, His thoughts just become my thoughts. Or rather, my thoughts become His. “But we have the mind of Christ” (1 Corinthians 2:16). I start thinking from a godly perspective and I just get downloads of what I need to know! It doesn’t sound like He’s speaking to me, but rather, He speaks His truth through me.
For example, I noticed that only one of the 10+ songs we sang was written before I left Messiah. I pondered that, and the Lord showed me:
We need artists. We need authors. We need teachers. We need worship leaders and song writers! To carry us into the next generation! We need new wine for new wineskins (Matthew 9:17). Each generation needs their own leaders to teach, reprove, correct and train in righteousness, to lead in worship.
You may feel insignificant. I may feel insignificant! (Often times I do!) But thisis the generation that we are called to share our gifts with. What we do nowwill impact the people of the future. We can choose to open our mouths, to live our passions in obedience to the Word of God; we can fulfill our calling. We need each other! We need each others’ gifts!
He really spoke to my heart. I struggle a lot with feeling like I have any important to say that everyone hasn’t heard before. On the drive home, the Holy Spirit transformed my mind (Romans 12:2) and I realized some other things:
Just because someone else is a writer or an author, doesn’t mean that I’m not too! They haven’t replaced me! I will write my thing, and they will write theirs. They will enrich me, not take away from me.
Phew. I struggle with this lie everyday. If anyone else is feeling this way, I want to pray for us.
God we cry out to You. I pray we will feel a sense of purpose. I pray You will reveal how we fit in Your body. Show us what we have to offer. And then help us to speak, to act, to love. To share what we have. I pray we will step outside our fears of “no one cares” and “everyone already knows”. I pray for boldness, and I pray we will walk in obedience when we feel Your nudging. Help us remember that the Church needs each member. We are all members of one body (1 Corinthians 12:2). Thank You God for giving grace and glory, for being so gracious to us. I pray we will hear Your voice and obey. Thank You Father for making a way through Jesus for us to come to You. May we walk by faith and boldly use our gifts for Your Kingdom. in Jesus’ Name, Amen.
1 Corinthians 12:14-22
For the body does not consist of one member but of many. 15 If the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. 16 And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would be the sense of hearing? If the whole body were an ear, where would be the sense of smell? 18 But as it is,God arranged the members in the body, each one of them, as he chose. 19 If all were a single member, where would the body be? 20 As it is, there are many parts, yet one body.
21 The eye cannot say to the hand, “I have no need of you,” nor again the head to the feet, “I have no need of you.” 22 On the contrary, the parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable…
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